Another Delay

I called IPPP today, and of course, i should expect the dissatisfied answer from them. This time, they told me that she can't look at the application, as the person in charge was on leave and the door is locked. i was totally freak out and upset, and was almost having anxiety attack! my chest was sooooo heavy, i couldn't breath easily. anyhow, i managed to get out of the office and found my way to cafe, to get some coffee, food and chocolate. eating is the best way to disturb my mind from thinking this shit. God....i should watch what i eat... fadzil! remember, one of your goal is to be FIT, not FAT!

well, the delay, hopefully, only until tomorrow, as she asked me to call her tomorrow
"first thing i will do tomorrow morning is to check your application" she said.
yea rite. i hope she meant what she said. i am crying dying hanging my head about this thing...or, i will find a way to do Meteorology no matter in malaysia or abroad...I WILL...

one thing that is not really surprise actually, i am never ever regret quitting banking. really, it wasn't what i want to do for the rest of my life. that's why i took ICT instead if Management Sc for my Minor courses, aite? well, i really want to be in meteorology field, no matter doing reserch [which intriguing..] or teaching it. or even applied math to meteorology would be so fun..yeah, what the hell, i will not stop until i get what i want. Don't Stop!

me: O Allah, forgive me, and grant me your rahmah..

This Thursday

well, i am expecting an answer on this Thursday regarding my application on Research Assistant at University Malaya. Either at Inst. of Oceanography and Earth Science or National Antarctic Center, I have no idea. But, it will definitely about meteorology involving climate modelling which is really intriguing...
Pray hard for this opportunity so then i will clearly see my future target.
God, help me...